I've never been more sure of this than now.

Why don't we love? Why do we see people suffering and even while we have the capacity to help or be of comfort, we don't? Even when we see people walking around in pain everywhere? Why don't we come along side them and care for them through their troubles? Why do we allow people to commit suicide or lose hope in life itself? Why do we let wounds grow worse instead of heal? Why don't we, with all our Bible study and years of church going, simply be an ear to listen to people who are suffering in their own heads? Why don't we, with all our counseling experience and leadership training, sit down with people who have no hope in life? Why don't we, with all the service projects we've done and hours of volunteering we've logged, even smile at the person who has nothing? Why do we meet together in our huge auditoriums and fancy buildings while people sleep on the streets in the cold? Why do we complain about worship styles and the decorating of the building when people haven't heard about the reason we meet in the first place? Why are we okay with people dying alone with no hope at all while we sit in our comfy chairs talking about how to manage our finances–the same finances that we use to make us more comfortable? Why are we okay with letting our world go down in flames while we protect our wallets with our lives? Why do we let people live their lives in search for empty glory when we're the ones who are supposed to be living our lives in light of the hope we've been given? Have we forgotten? Have we forgotten this grace that we've been given? The grace that saved us from death? Has it really had so little impact on our lives that we don't share the story of our redemption? Then why does it even matter? Why even pretend then? Why do we let the passion of this amazing grace we've been given die out in our hearts and turn into robots who come to church in hopes of a short sermon and then leave to go back to our unchanged lives? Do you think there is a small hope that maybe someday we will feel God's presence like we did when we first chose to follow Him? Do we still desire God or are we past that point? Have we forgotten how to love Him? Have we resorted to church attendance and number of Bible studies to show that we have it all together? Do we really have it all together? Where's the brokenness in our lives? Where's the compassion? Where's the love? How come all that nonbelievers say about the church is that we're hypocritical, judgmental, old fashioned, unloving, fake people who could care less about anyone else? Is there truth to that? What have we done to get ourselves here–a place where the world hates us because of our actions or lack thereof? Why don't we love those who are trapped in an endless cycle of sin and its consequences? Why don't we even see that people are hurting and want God more than anything? Why don't we spend even a minute of our time out of our lives to be what we were made to be? Are the things that take up our time so important that we can watch people die when we have the knowledge of the only thing that will save them? Are we that heartless? Do our lives mean so much to us that we can't lose anything for the gain of others? Why are we so consumed with ourselves and our needs that we are blinded to the needs of others? Why does the world sometimes do a better job of taking care of the homeless, the poor, the sick, and the weak? Why don't we move when the same Spirit we ask to fill us prompts us to care for the needy? Why do we refuse the opportunity to do good? Why aren't we sensitive to the needs of others? Why have we allowed ourselves to be so self-absorbed that we are completely ignorant and blinded to the brokenhearted people all around us?

I'm sorry. I do not love as You have loved me. You have saved me, but I act as if I'm too busy to love Your children and show them the kindness You have shown me. I do not deserve to be loved that way You love me. I've never been more sure of this than now. Thank you for loving me and never stopping. Thank you for Your grace and that You have not given up on me and You have not given up on Your people.

"In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loves us, we also ought to love one another." 1 John 4:9-11